Hanya Pada-Mu Ku Berserah...

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim... 

Setelah sekian lama menyepi..hari ni, I wanna say that I'm really grateful for everything that I had faced for the past few months.. Alhamdulillah..

Ternyata, Allah Maha Pengasih lagi Maha Penyayang.. Allah Maha Mengetahui apa yang terbaik untuk hamba-hamba-Nya.. Setiap dugaan yang berlaku itu, ada hikmah yang manis menanti bagi orang-orang yang BERSABAR.. 

Setelah hampir 3 bulan aku menempuh hari-hari yang penuh mencabar di maktab baru tu, makin lama aku jadi semakin kuat.. Memang, sebelum ni memang aku dah give up.. Dan aku memang dah buat pon surat untuk pindah maktab.. Tapi, Allah Maha mengatur segala-galanya..  Takdir Allah, aku masih kekal di maktab tu.. Permohonan pindah aku tak dilayan..

Dan dalam tempoh 3 bulan ni, aku telah menghadapi pelbagai jenis dugaan... The most sad thing happened was when I've been betrayed by my own classmates! I really3 don't understand, why do they need to mind other people's private life?? Asyik nak jaga tepi kain orang je kerjanya! Everything that I did was wrong in their eyes.. They're like didn't want to see me happy.. Padahal aku tak pernah sentuh pon hal peribadi diorang! Hmmm..memang lumrah dunia kan, dalam banyak2 orang di sekeliling kita ni, ada saja orang yang tak suka tengok kita senang, atau dalam erti kata lain DENGKI dengan kelebihan dan nikmat orang lain..

What they had done to me, just let it be a secret.. Besides, I wanna forget it.. There's no use we think about something that only make us feel sad and down.. Lagipon, aku dah maafkan apa yang diorang buat tu..  Buat apa simpan dalam hati.. Sedangkan Nabi ampunkan umat inikan pula kita manusia biasa yang tak pernah terlepas daripada melakukan sebarang kesilapan..  Aku akui, kadang-kala aku pon tak terlepas daripada melakukan kesilapan..so, setiap dugaan yang aku hadapi ni betul2 mengajar aku untuk muhasabah diri balik.. Sebab itu kita perlu bersabar dan redha apabila ditimpa sesuatu dugaan.. Lagipon, tak perlulah kita buang masa balas balik apa-apa kesalahan yang orang dah buat kat kita.. Nabi dulu pon sering kali diganggu oleh orang kafir jahiliah, tapi Nabi tak pernah melawan balik, bahkan Nabi berbicara dengan baik dan berdoa agar hati mereka lembut dan terbuka.. =) 

Sekarang, aku hanya berpegang pada ayat "La Takhaf Wa La Tahzan, Innallah Ha Maa'na" - "Jangan Takut dan Jangan Bersedih kerana Allah Bersama Kita..

Di sebalik kekuatan yang aku cari-cari selama ni, ada insan-insan yang sentiasa sudi membantu.. Lots of love and thanks to my beloved sister, Kak Azlin Hafizah yang sedang menuntut di Russia in Medic.. Semoga Allah permudahkan pula perjalanan hidupmu..  And also special thanks to Farah Eizzaty and Dayang Nur Liyana yg sentiasa menemani di maktab baru tu.. And to Mr. R, thanks 4 being understanding for what had happened and willing to be my friend.. 

Oh ye, I've just had finished facing Standardised Test 2.. Alhamdulillah, bolehla jawab, tapi ada slack sikit dekat subjek BM, Bio and Physics.. Hmm.. tak pelah. usaha dah, doa pon dah, TAWAKKAL jelah sekarang.. Insya-Allah.. 2 weeks lagi Final Exam pulak!!! Do pray for my best yeah! =)

BERHIJRAH..~

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..~

Assalamualaikum semua.. Terlebih dahulu aku nak ucap Salam Maulidur Rasul.. Hmm...rindu Rasulullah.. <3.. Aku takut tengok zaman sekarang..makin banyak perkara yang tak elok berlaku.. Aku harap sangat, kita sebagai umat akhir zaman sama2 lah menghayati perjuangan Rasulullah dan sentiasa mengikut sunnah Rasulullah.. Kalaulah Rasulullah masih ada, pasti baginda sedih tengok keadaan umatnya sekarang..So, sama2lah kita renung2kan ye..

Ok, sekarang nak bercerita tentang 'Hijrah'.. Hijrah bermaksud perpindahan ke suatu tempat atau ke keadaan yang lebih baik.. So, pada tahun 2012 ni, aku akan berhijrah ke satu tempat lain, tapi, tak tahu lah tempat tu lebih baik daripada tempat dulu atau tak..Wallahua'lam.. Doa2 jela tempat baru tu boleh merubah aku ke arah yang lebih terbaik..Insya-Allah..

Ok, sebenarnya, tempat yang aku maksudkan ini ialah MRSM _ _ _ _ _ _ _..huhu..aku terpaksa berhijrah dari MRSM Transkrian, tempat 1001 kenangan tersimpan, tempat aku belajar untuk bangun selepas terjatuh, tempat aku mengenali erti sebenar persahabatan, tempat aku mengerti yang mana kaca, yang mana permata, tempat aku belajar menjadi seorang yang lebih tabah dan matang! Macam2 perkara yang aku dah belajar di Transkrian, dan aku bersyukur kerana berpeluang menjadi salah seorang daripada warga Transkrian..

Ya Allah....Berat rasa hati nak tinggalkan Transkrian.. Sangat2 berat..Rasa macam ada bergelen-gelen air dan batu dalam hati aku ni.. tapi, aku terpaksa.. Kalaula En. S _ _ x buat pengumuman kat atas pentas dan depan semua warga maktab pasal pkp ni, aku memang dah tolak tau.. Hmm..hanya Allah yg mengerti maksud sebenar aku ni..

Ramai yang pelik kenapa aku nak tolak?? Sedangkan ini bagaikan satu peluang keemasan..dan amatlah B****** org yg tolak tu..[bak kate seseorg la].. But friends, truely, I know myself.. I'M NOT LIKE WHAT YOU THINK because you just see me on the outside, not inside.. Deeply inside my heart, I know the real me.. Aku tak tahu korang faham ke tak maksud aku tapi yang pasti, hanya Allah Maha Mengetahui..

BUT, EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON.. Setiap perkara yang terjadi pada diri kita, bermuhasabahlah.. Renungkan hikmah yang terselit di sebaliknya.. Mungkin ini anugerah Allah untuk aku berubah dan atasi kelemahan aku tu.. Ok, aku redha.. Kali ni, walau apa pon ujian dan dugaan yang aku terima, aku akan hadapi dengan tabah untuk kebaikan diri aku sendiri.. Apa-apa pon, hanya Allah tempat mengadu, dan hanya Allah tempat memohon pertolongan.. And thanks a lot to those who keep supporting me.. Aku sayang korang sangat2..and to the teachers, I'm so sorry because I cannot stay there anymore..Sincerely thanks for everything from the bottom of my heart..and I'LL NEVER EVER forget everything about TRANSKRIAN.. <3 <3 <3

Ada seorang cikgu aku cakap, dalam hidup ini TAK BOLEH ADA KALAU.. sebab 'kalau' tu membawa erti penyesalan..and regret is something that is surely not good for us.. bak kata pepatah, SESAL DAHULU PENDAPATAN, SESAL KEMUDIAN TIADA GUNA, hmm..rasanya korang semua faham kan maksud ni? Tak perlulah aku terangkan dengan panjang lebar.. Senang cerita, fikir masak2 dulu sebelum membuat sesuatu keputusan, beristikharah, dan usaha sesungguhnya.. Once we choose that way, there's no more way to turn back.. Dan aku akan cuba sedaya upaya untuk tidak menyesal dengan keputusan yang aku buat ni..

So, in life, we need to keep moving forward! Seperti seorang kawan aku kata, 'AIM TO THE STAR, IF WE FALL, WE STILL REACH THE MOON'..hehe..[ada persamaan ke dengan semua benda yang aku cakap ni?? -.-"] Papepon, kata2 ni still memberikan motivasi kan?

Ok, till here for today.. Doakan aku berjaya menyesuaikan diri di tempat baru ye! Amin..I'll wajib try the best in _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _.. Insya-Allah.~

Enjoy Life While You Still Young!

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

Hello all.. Hmm..it's been a long time I didn't post anything in this blog.. Well, I just got nothing to say..hehe.. Actually, there's a lot of stories to be shared, about KIKS, new roommate, new teachers and so on..but..hmm.. I like to keep it by myself..Besides, there aren't much sweet memories happened during this one month.. [but bad memories..A LOT!] So, I think that was the main reason I didn't have the feelings to write about all of it.. [ARGHH..the bad things had crush the good things!=( ] Naaahhh..forget it!

Well, enough of mumbling.. Today, I would really please to write about something. Yeah..a topic which is inspired by the one who I admire..hehehe.. The topic is about 'enjoying our younger time'.. As for me, I feel really eager to grow up..Why? These are the reasons :

1. I wanna have freedom to do anything that I want.
2. I wanna feel free to go anywhere that I want.
3. I wanna buy things that I like with my own money.
4. I don't want to do homeworks! [huhu..so bad huh?!]
5. Enough of following school rules!                                                                                                         

Yeah..I think there's a lot more reasons but I've short listed it to 5 only.. [too lazy lah to type..hehe..]

But, you know friends, someone had realized me about the challenges to be an adult.. He said that the older we grow, the more responsibilities we need to carry..and every freedom that we got has its own prices.. Hmm... I became speechless.. Wondering..what does he really means..

Then, after thinking about everything he said, I got the idea what he meant about the prices.. For example :

"You have grown up. You have buy your own car and you can go to anywhere that you want to go. But, if you buy a car, you still have to pay every month right? Or else you will lose your car.. And, if you wanna travel with your car, you need to fill the fuel.. To do so, you need money. And from where you need to get the money? Yes, you'll have to work! You can't depend on your parents for the rest of your life. If you're working, you can't just easily skip your work because if you do so, your performance will down and you can't get more money or salary..  or worst, you'll get fired! It's so not easy to get a job nowadays.."

So, the conclusion is, being an adult is more tough than being a kid or teenager..Plus, there's a lot of things you need to think if you are an adult. Compare to a kid or teenager, what you need to think of is just your study! Even though there's a lot of subjects, but you still focusing at the same topic, which is ACADEMICS and SCHOOLS.. I heard majority of my brothers and sisters said that they want to be young again and they miss their younger life! So, just be happy with what you have now and enjoy it while you are still young.. Your time to be old enough to have the freedom will come one day. So, just be patience. And remember, you are always moving forward, and never ever can rewind back the time..so, use it wisely and happily! 

Actually, I dislike being a teenager.. haha..you must be thinking that I'm weird right, because some of you think that being a teenager is the most wonderful time in life! I admit that. Sometimes it is wonderful.. But most of the time are fill with feelings confusion, friends problem, and the worst thing is LOVE! Arghh.. I am so confused..why do we need to have feelings towards others during this younger age?? It's so hard to control.. If we don't have strong faith, we will easily strayed from the correct path! So friends, get closer to Allah to have His Guidance! Only Allah can be our best helper! I've learnt a lot from my mistake and I am so grateful to Allah for His guidance.. Everything happen must have reasons right. 

Ok.. I think that's all for tonight.. Do leave a comment to share your opinions and to correct my Grammar yeah.. [It's been a while I left English classes, so the Grammar had been crazy already..hehe..]

Ok.. Adios!

The End of Everything..

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

Hai semua.. Hurm.. Today is a bit gloomy lah.. Gloomy on me and also the weather.. Well, as you see, today's post is about 'the end of everything'. So, what's gonna end?

1. 2011 had already ended..Now, Welcome 2012! Hmm..I'm really3 sad to leave 2011 because there's a lot of memories in it.. Mostly the sweet one.. Even though 2011 is a tough and busy year because of the PMR examination, but still, I think 2012 is gonna be tougher and busier than 2011.. Being an upper form level student a.k.a Form 4, will have to face a lot of new things.. Bio, Physics, Chemist, and others which is totally different from lower form syllabus..I'm scared..=( Am I gonna make it?? My second Idol told me to not be afraid because challenges are good for us.. It'll make us a better person.. Insya-Allah. I'll try to do my best.. BTW, he is my source of spirit in Trans.. Whenever I feel down, if I look at his face, I'll gain my spirit again! ^_^ But, for 2012 and 2013, he'll not be in Trans anymore.. I can't do anything because he is growing older and he has his own path in achieving his dream.. So, I'll just can pray for the best to him and hoping he will never forget me..

2. Tomorrow is the end of my FREEDOM! No more over sleeping, no more eating whenever I want, no more relaxing and no more EVERYTHING lah.. :'( It's the start of my new journey of becoming a F4 student.. So sad leaving this Year-End School Holiday, which is NO HOMEWORKS are given.. Furthermore, even though I feel boring doing nothing in this holidays but I'm still grateful because there's some friends who willing to cheer my day.. It's so out of the blue that some people, who I never talk to before in Trans, willing to chat with me on FB.. Haha.. [touched].. Well, thanks a lot to them..<3

3. The most sad thing is that I have to leave my parents! Hukhuk.. T_T.. They are my first supporter and protector.. Hmm.. Never mind.. Besides, I'm getting older too.. I have to be more independent! Till when I need to count on them?? Enough of burden them! Yeah! Go Mirror! ;)

I think that's all for today.. And maybe I will not post for about 1 month.. =( Busy of being a student..hehe..
Ok..Tata.. (^_^)

SAYANG KINABALU..;)

Bismillah..

Ehem2..hehe..hari ni nak cerita sikit tentang telemovie yang aku tengok semalam. Tajuknya HATIKU DI KINABALU @ Astro Citra, 10 pm.
Sweet sangat ceritanya and really sad..Haha..dahla tajuknya pon dah hampir2 sama dengan tajuk bolg aku nih.. bezanya, hati aku ni kat awan biru, not at Kinabalu..hehe.. So, aku tulis sikit sinopsis cerita tu [ringkas punya lah..nak tau full, tgoklah sendiri ye..hihi..]

Permulaan ceritanya begini..~

Ada seorang lelaki, namanya Anuar, yang x percaya akan cinta pandang pertama, bersumpah akan daki G. Kinabalu kalau dia jumpa cinta pandang pertama.. Then, he met a girl, named Qistina, and fell in love with her.. So, to fulfill his promise, his friends booked a climbing to M. Kinabalu package for him.. He went climbing with Qistina, and at the peak of M. Kinabalu, he admit his feelings to her..Luckily, Qistina accept it..

Perkembangan..~

They got married, and life was going perfectly for them as they got a baby girl named Maya.. Until..one day, Qistina had an terrible accident.. She got injured badly on the head and was coma for a very long time.. From Maya was born, until she's become a big girl, Qistina still in coma.. Then, they [Maya and Anuar] met Lara, a kind woman, who always cook for Maya..

Klimaks..~

Qistina's father ask Anuar to marry Lara, for the sake of Maya.. He agreed, because only Lara can take good care of Maya.. When, Maya had become a teenage girl, Qistina awake from coma.. Anuar and Lara kept their marriage as a secret from Qistina, so that she'll not get pressure.. However, Maya couldn't accept Qistina in her life.. She want Lara to be in the family, not Qistina.. 

Peleraian..~

Qistina heard Maya and Anuar talking about Lara, so she searched her room for any clues.. Suddenly, she saw a wedding pic of Anuar and Lara.. She's so sad.. That night, she went to Maya's room, to explain everything to her and ask for forgiveness because she couldn't take good care of Maya.. Maya realize her fault, and can accept Qistina as her mother..But, in the morning, Qistina went missing..actually, she went to M. Kinabalu, to calm herself.. When Anuar found her there, she asked Anuar to not divorce Lara but to let her go peacefully.. :'(

 THE END..
Well, agak unfair ending dia.. Kesian Qistina.. Tapi, siapalah yg sanggup bermadu kan.. Hmm..Nak lepaskan Lara, kesian jugak.. Entahlah..~ o.O Nak dengar lagu tema cerita ni?? Best sangat tau..hehe..

SAYANG KINABALU by Kimin Mudin

Tinggi-tinggi Gunung Kinabalu

Tinggi lagi sayang sama kamu

Biru-biru hujung Kinabalu

Tengok dari jauh hati saya rindu …..

Kinabalu dekat di Kundasang

Banyak sayur boleh pilih-pilih

Apa guna pergi luar negeri

Naik Kinabalu hati saya rindu

C/o:

Sumandak-sumandak pun ramai menunggu

Menari-nari lenggang sumazau

Sekali melihat melepak kulitnya

Sayang jatuh cinta …..

Sayang-sayang saya Kinabalu

Kaamatan pesta bulan lima

Saying kita pergi tamu

Jalan tamparuli hati saya saya rindu …..

Here's the video..(^_^)

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MEMORY

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

Syukur..Alhamdulillah.. 

~Segala debaran yang dinanti-nantikan sekian lama (for 3 years)..terjawab juga pada 22 Disember 2011 hari tu..

~I'm so grateful and happy because all my hard work for 3 years paid with an excellent result which me, my parents, family, friends, and teachers hope.. And, mostly I wanna thank every single person in my life who had support and pray for me all this while especially my mom and dad..<3 

~The MEMORY of everything in Transkrian will never be forgotten!! In Transkrian, I met many types of people, and learnt so much things from the tiniest until the biggest things. I'm planning not to leave Transkrian, because honestly, I'm tired of moving and adapting myself to new surrounding..hehe..

~Now, I wanna introduce to all some songs which my teachers and my batch, 09-11, sing to raise our spirits in learning and facing any obstacles in life..

1. ADAKAH KAU LUPA by Alarm Me

Adakah kau lupa 

Kita pernah berjaya

Adakah kau lupa

Kita pernah berkuasa

Memayungi dua pertiga dunia

Menrentas benua melayar samudera

Keimanan juga ketaqwaan

Rahsia mereka capai kejayaan

Bangunlah wahai anak bangsa

Kita bina kekuatan jiwa

Tempuh rintangan perjuangan

Gemilang generasi yang silam

Membawa arus perubahan

Keikhlasan hati dan nurani

Ketulusan jiwa mereka berjuang

Sejarah telah mengajar kita

Budaya Islam di serata dunia

Membina tamadun berjaya

Merubah mengangkat maruah

Here's the song.. =)

2. HAMBAMU by Mawi feat Akhil Hayy

Ke arah satu perjalanan

Dalam sebuah kehidupan

Demi untuk mengecapi

Hasrat murni di dalam hati

Usaha dengan doa

Masanya akan tiba

Dengan restu Illahi

Kelak pasti akan ditemui

Suluhkan cahaya di hati terang (Allah)

Tunjukkan jalan seandainya hilang (Allah)

Tegakkan perjalanan yang bakal ditempuh

Tegakkan semangat bila runtuh

Setibanya di sisiMu ku berserah

Terimalahku hambaMu Allah

HambaMu Allah

Sekiranya takdir menguji

Cekalkanlah hasrat di hati

Semoga kesusahan bisa

Mengajar erti terus asa

Usaha dengan doa

Masanya akan tiba

Dengan restu Illahi

Kelak pasti akan ditemui

Suluhkan cahaya di hati terang (Allah)

Tunjukkan jalan seandainya hilang (Allah)

Tegakkan perjalanan yang bakal ditempuh

Tegakkan semangat bila runtuh

Setibanya di sisiMu ku berserah

Terimalahku hambaMu Allah

Dengan restu Illahi

Kelak pasti akan ditemui

Suluhkan cahaya di hati terang (Allah)

Tunjukkan jalan seandainya hilang (Allah)

Tegakkan perjalanan yang bakal ditempuh

Tegakkan semangat bila runtuh

Setibanya di sisiMu ku berserah

Terimalahku hambaMu Allah

HambaMu Allah

HambaMu Allah

Here's the song..=)

Best kan lagu2 tu?? =).. Ni, ada satu lagi lagu yg best dan sangat sesuai buat para muslimah untuk dijadikan sumber inspirasi agar dapat menjadi muslimah terbaik!! =)

BONUS SONG : SOLEHAH [theme song] by Badri Ibrahim

Dialah pasangan

pengaruh kelembutan

bimbinglah dengan bimbingan

cetusan membahagiakan

Kau wanita

terbilang tabah cekal bertandang

kerana kau lahirlah penerus jasa

Kau solehah

Bahkan nyawa kau pertaruhkan

Agar nur iman terpelihara

Kau wanita

terbilang tabah cekal bertandang

kerana kau lahirlah penerus jasa

Here's the song..NICE VIDEO! =)

That's all..Selamat Mendengar dan hayatilah liriknya! (^_^)

Kecelaruan dan Quote..o_O

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

Tajuk hari ini - kecelaruan - dan quote.. 

Apa yg celarunya? Yg pasti BUKAN identiti ye.. Tapi, perasaan.. Esok, tarikh keramat, 22 Disember 2011.. Tak tahulah nak cakap apa. Nak duduk pon tak senang dah ni. Bertawakkal jelah sekarang ye.. I know, everyone hope for the best! Including me! (>.<)
Alright, next topic - quote.. First, I want to share a quote.. I saw it from a post in Facebook.. I don't know whether he created it or copied, but for sure, it realizes me about something.. The quote sounds like this -

"Usah TAKUT kehilangan orang yang DICINTAI kerana agama, sebaliknya takutlah KEHILANGAN AGAMA kerana orang yang kita cintai."

tititititi....<-------- tak tahu nak cakap ape dah la..uhuk..uhuk..lagi beberapa jam saja lagi.. Maaf lah ye.. Post hari ni pelik sikit..(banyak sebenarnya).. If you're form 3, I think you really understand my situation..

Ok, now, there's another quote which I really like it! It's good to use it as a principle of life.. -

"Kejarlah cita-cita sebelum cinta, apabila tercapainya cita-cita, dengan sendirinya cinta itu akan hadir.."

Ish! Aku ni, asyik post pasal cinta je..and you must be thinking that I'm a 'jiwang' type.. Well, kadang-kadang je.. dah lumrah kan - TEENAGE -..huhu..[ouh! I'M SO DEAD if my brothers read this!] Biarlah.. My Blog, My Decision!

Next, a quote which my friend, Munirah Yasmin, always use it as her principle of life -

"Ready for the best, prepare for the worst!" 

For my Idol, he likes this quote -

"Sebaik-baik manusia adalah yang paling bermanfaat bagi manusia lain." (HR Ahmad dan Thabrani)

Hmm.. anyone? Who would like to share their quote too? To achieve success in our life, it's really important to have a principle.. Barulah jadi orang yang berwawasan! =) Bye..