Experiences..~

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

Waaa.... It's been so Long that I never update this blog.. huhuhu..even my own diary I rarely write in it.. Hmm...seriusly what a busy life I have this semester.. And worstly, I became more n more n more lazier lately.. Why?!!! I don't know why. My homeworks are all abandoned.. *so guilty =.=" but, but...arghh... how to get rid of this laziness??? Ya Allah...please help me.. =(

Ok... After the last post, I had Semester 1 Examination, and Alhamdulillah.. Everything works well..and the result were unexpected too.. What else I can say then Alhamdulillah.. =) But.. deeply in my heart, the result scared me.. I bet everyone knows how hard it would be to maintain a high result.. No matter what, my mind said that my result for the next exam will definitely not as high as in semester 1.. I know, I know, I shouldn't thought like that..but...but.. Huhuhu..I'm so totally depressed! I hate when everyone is focusing on me too much! I have my own life ok! I have the feeling to enjoy my life too, like a normal teenager.. And I really hate when everyone expecting something high from me.. I'm not A ROBOT OK?!

Actually, lots of unexpected things happened in this Semester 2.. Hmm..most happiest part was when I got the chance to join Maths Carnival at MJSC Muar.. The experience of the journey to Muar with Nadwah's members was totally fascinating! I love that moment So Much! Then, I've been offered to join Nobel Laureates Outreach Camp (NLOC) at UPM Serdang.. Hmm..this program was interesting. But..know what, I've cried at one evening in the hostel in UPM. Why?? Haha..I was so deeply stressed out since I have to finish my assignment in just ONE DAY! Weirdly, I really3 miss my college during that time and how much I hope everything will soon finish and end. 

Maths Carnival's Team! Terbaik! =)

Nadwah Islamiah's Team! Sporting habis! =)

Nobel's Team.. =)

          After this part, my life was starting to turn upside down and became chaos.. I had to reject to join PRS Camp in USM because lack of time to prepare myself for the upcoming exam.. Sad. Then, all of my dreams, which were participating in Language Week, Leadership Camp (ICC) and Tunas Saintis had vanished! How my heart broke into pieces after I had missed all those program.. ='( Until now, the pain is still there, still in my heart. The most shocking part was when I've been chosen as one of the Student's Representative Council (SRC) 12/13 of my college. I wanted to stop compete for the post, but my teachers wouldn't allow me to do so.. I wanted to apply for Peers, and that was my dream since the first day I step into this college. Unfortunately, everything happened SO FAST.. And now, I had become the Secretary of SRC 12/13.. Unbelievable! But that was what happened to me.

Election Day! 

The conclusion that I can make in this semester 2 is, I didn't get something that I want so much, but I got something that I never plan to have.. Well, only one thing that I can do right now..which is REDA.. EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON RIGHT? I just hope that I have the strength to change myself before the Final Examination starts in October. Hopefully, when I go back to college tomorrow, I will start a new life, turn back to be the old Diligent Mirror, facing ONLY books, and give the full commitment to SRC. Insya-Allah..do pray for me.. =)  Ameen...