Random Poem~

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

I am a big girl, 
I can live without depending to anybody, 
Because only to Allah The Almighty I should depend to.

I am a big girl, 
I do not need any boys to give me spirits, 
Because depending on boys are such a useless act.

I am a big girl, 
I can survive if I did not have a gang or clan, 
As long as I did not do anything wrong, 
Or hurt anybody's feeling.

I am a big girl, 
I can go anywhere that I want to, 
Without burdening anyone by asking them to send me,
Because I believe Allah is always by my side to protect me.

I am a big girl, 
I can make my own decisions,
Without being influenced by anybody's opinion, 
Or being forced by anyone,
Because I am the one who will face 
all the consequences in my future.

I am a big girl, 
And I know that I'm strong enough 
to face all the obstacles in my life, 
As long as I ask for Allah's help and guidance. 

#expressingmyself
#goingtoadulthood

"فَإِن تَوَلَّوْاْ فَقُلْ حَسْبِيَ اللّهُ لا إِلَـهَ إِلاَّ هُوَ عَلَيْهِ تَوَكَّلْتُ وَهُوَ رَبُّ الْعَرْشِ الْعَظِيمِ"

"Jika mereka berpaling (daripada keimanan), maka katakanlah : "Cukuplah Allah bagiku; tidak ada Tuhan selain Dia. Hanya kepada-Nya aku bertawakal dan Dia adalah Tuhan yang memiliki Arasy (singgahsana) yang agung."

(Surah At-Taubah, 9 : 129)

p/s : just trying to coax myself =/

Terrifying Experience.

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim…

Now, it’s already 2.13 a.m, and I am writing in the train, heading to my beloved home town in Alor Setar.. The journey from Kuala Lumpur to Alor Setar by train is approximately about eight to nine hours, or longer I think.. Huaa..I seriously can’t sleep in this 2^nd class seat, it’s too noisy and the lights are on. Next time, whenever I’m going to travel by train, I’ll take the bed for sure. Hmm,  I think I have to sit in this train for about five hours more, and because of I can’t sleep, I take this chance to write..  Yeah I know it has been quite a long time I didn’t write a new entry (did I?) Haha.. and you wonder why? Perhaps I’m too busy doing nothing, (which means I’m lazy to write la.. =p) Oh yeah, actually this is my first time experience taking a train. I was excited at first, but now….hehe..I’ve returned to the ordinary me. ^^

To be honest, I am very grateful because this time, I go back home to Alor Setar not by myself, but accompanied by my colleagues.. Actually, I don’t know whether I still have the guts to travel alone after this due to the terrifying incident happened last week.. =(

Ok, that is what I’m going to write about in this early morning, the terrifying incident.

Last Friday, on 11^th April, there was a girl, who planned to go to KLCC to celebrate her best friend’s birthday. They planned to go to Petrosains. So, she took the 9.15 a.m bus from campus to KTM. Luckily, her other friends took the same bus too, but they were heading to different places from the KTM. As they arrived at the KTM, they waited at the platform as usual, whilst chit-chatting to each other. During that time, she actually had realised that they had been stared by a stranger who stood in front of them, but she tried to ignore his action. When the train had arrived, they stood up and rushed towards the nearest door. Out of the blue, that strange man came towards her and started to 'be nice' to her. She felt very scared so she held her friend’s arm tightly. He started to talk nonsense to her. Luckily, her friend pulled her arm and asked her to run as they wanted to enter the Lady’s Coach, which located a bit further from the door that they first wanted to enter.

Her friends were in confusion to see her pale face, so she told them about the terrifying incident.  She felt relieved as they had entered the Lady’s Coach and had separated with the strange psychotic man. However, to her astonishment, she saw the same man was standing near them, between the Mix Coach and the Lady’s Coach. She was in great shock as she can’t believe that the man tried to find them and walked from the first coach to the Lady’s Coach (because as far as she knew, the distance from the first coach to the Lady’s Coach was quite far). She told her friends about the man’s existence. Her friends were also in great shock. They tried to coax her by asking her to think positively, like perhaps she had dropped something and he wanted to give it back to her, or perhaps he was her parents’ friend etc. But she couldn’t think or accept any other logic reasons at all. So, they brainstorming and came out with a strategy, which was to pretend as if they were going to go out from the train at the next station.

When the train stopped at the next station, they quickly walk towards the crowd who were going to go out, but instead of going out, they walked straight to the other Lady’s Coach, farther from their former place. Meanwhile, she kept praying hard for Allah’s help and protection. Luckily, after the train had moved away from the station, they did not see the man anymore.

Till now, she still prays to Allah so that she would not see that man anymore, forever. 

The Ibrah (lessons) that I get from the incident were: -

• Every time we go out from house, (to travel etc), we have to pray for Allah's protection and Tawakkaltua'lallah..
• No matter where and when, we HAVE to REMEMBER ALLAH.
• Allah is the only BEST PROTECTOR, trust Him no matter what.
• Covering the 'AURAT' will not guarantee that bad people would not disturb you. It's all back to the 'niat' (intention), is it really for covering the 'aurat' or just to look pretty? 
• Allah will give His servants test and tribulations to pull His servants back to Him. Allahu Rabbi. :')  

Here are a few good du'a to recite when we need Allah's protection :-

1. Ayat Al-Kursi

اللَّهُ لاَ إِلَهَ إِلاَّ هُوَ الْحَيُّ الْقَيُّومُ لاَ تَأْخُذُهُ سِنَةٌ وَلاَ نَوْمٌ لَهُ مَا فِي السَّمَاوَاتِ وَمَا فِي الأَرْضِ مَنْ ذَا الَّذِي يَشْفَعُ عِنْدَهُ إِلاَّ بِإِذْنِهِ يَعْلَمُ مَا بَيْنَ أَيْدِيهِمْ وَمَا خَلْفَهُمْ وَلاَ يُحِيطُونَ بِشَيْءٍ مِنْ عِلْمِهِ إِلاَّ بِمَا شَاءَ وَسِعَ كُرْسِيُّهُ السَّمَاو ;َاتِ وَالأَرْضَ وَلاَ يَئُودُهُ حِفْظُهُمَا وَهُوَ الْعَلِيُّ الْعَظِيمُ

"There is no god but He,The Living, the Everlasting, Slumber seizes Him not, neither sleep, To Him belongs all that is in the heavens and the earth. Who is there that can intercede with His, except by His leave? He knows what lies before them and what is after them, 

And they comprehend not anything of His Knowledge save as He wills. His throne comprises the heavens and the earth, The preserving of them fatigues Him not, And He is the All-High, All-Glorious." 

 [Surat al-Baqarah : 255] 

2. Al-Ikhlas, Al-Falaq, An-Nas (3 Qul)

http://quran2hadith.wordpress.com/

p/s : I only have the chance to post this entry today due to the problem with internet connection.. :) 

A Year Ago...

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

Alhamdulillah, today is the 4^th of April, so in 6 days more it will be enough of 2 months I've been in this university. I'm so grateful that Allah had ease my way to enter university life after the SPM result came out. And I hope that all of my friends out there will have an easy way to further their study too, Insya-Allah..

So, what will this post talk about? A year ago? What had happened a year ago?

Yeah, during this week, the first week of April, but in 2013, there's something happened during that week which I could still clearly remember until now, even though it has been a year ago. Seriously, I can't believe myself that it has been a year passed because all of the memories I had in my previous school were felt like just a few days ago it happened.

          Actually, the thing that I want to share today was not the kind of important story or something. It just part of my memory that I couldn’t forget. Haha.. I don’t know the exact date of it but I just can recall that it happened right after 30^th of March, which was around the first week of April.

          Right after the school holiday was over, and I need to go back to Langkawi, I realised that my left eye was red. I told my mother and she was afraid that I might have conjunctivitis. Unfortunately, I had already bought the ferry ticket and all that I can do is just hoping that the redness of my left eye would fade. However, that night, which is Sunday night, my left eye was still red. The same condition happened the next day, until, on the Monday night, where I supposed to have discussion with my Biology group members during the Program Gemilang (PG) session, I refused to join them as my left eye started to feel itchy. So, I sat in the BWP’s room, studying Biology by myself, accompanied by the Account students who were busy finishing their assignment. After the PG session, I was so hungry but I was embarrassed to go to the Dining Hall (DS), so I asked my classmate to buy a lot of breads for me from the college shop. Meanwhile, I hid behind the cement wall. (=.=)”

          So, the next day, I decided to go to the clinic. When I was waiting for my name to be called by the nurse, I saw an English couple came to the clinic. I was wondering what made them came to the clinic, and out of the blue, I saw that English man’s eye was red too! XD I laughed in my heart and said, “at least I got a gang”. =p But poor that English man, I bet their vacation would not be an interesting one then. =(

          After came back from the clinic, I was asked to go back home as the hostel administrator wouldn’t allow any students having infectious diseases to stay at the sickbay. (T_T) I was sad, but, yay! No students wouldn’t be happy when they are allowed to go back home. ^^ So, before I went back home that evening, I was so hungry so I forced myself to go to the DS to eat, but I went there at almost 3 p.m, because I didn’t want any other students to see me. =p   

          Then, I was wondering, how I am going to get to the jetty by myself? I thought that I need to take the taxi, but luckily, I bump into my warden and she was willing to send me to the jetty. =) Along the way to buy the ferry ticket and to go inside the waiting room, I forced myself to look down only. I hold a handkerchief to cover my left eye, huhuhu.. (T_T) While I was waiting to board the ferry, suddenly my ears caught a very soothing song. There was a man, who was playing a guitar, sitting near me. He was playing a song that I’ve heard it before, but I just couldn’t remember the title. He played that song slowly, and when he sang the chorus, I got it that it was the ‘Hey There Delilah’ song. :D

Hey there Delilah
What's it like in New York City?
I'm a thousand miles away
But girl tonight you look so pretty
Yes you do
Times Square can't shine as bright as you
I swear it's true

Hey there Delilah
Don't you worry about the distance
I'm right there if you get lonely
Give this song another listen
Close your eyes
Listen to my voice it's my disguise
I'm by your side

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me

Hey there Delilah
I know times are getting hard
But just believe me girl
Someday I'll pay the bills with this guitar
We'll have it good
We'll have the life we knew we would
My word is good

Hey there Delilah
I've got so much left to say
If every simple song I wrote to you
Would take your breath away
I'd write it all
Even more in love with me you'd fall
We'd have it all

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me

A thousand miles seems pretty far
But they've got planes and trains and cars
I'd walk to you if I had no other way
Our friends would all make fun of us
and we'll just laugh along because we know
That none of them have felt this way
Delilah I can promise you
That by the time we get through
The world will never ever be the same
And you're to blame

Hey there Delilah
You be good and don't you miss me
Two more years and you'll be done with school
And I'll be making history like I do
You know it's all because of you
We can do whatever we want to
Hey there Delilah here's to you
This one’s for you

Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
Oh it's what you do to me
What you do to me.

So now, whenever I heard that song, it would always remind me of that memory. Besides, I love the lyrics! Felt meaningful to me. <3

Well, I need to take a week leave from school to fully recover. =) hehehe..

The End.

p/s : There are a lot of other songs which contain my memories in it. If I have more other leisure times, I’ll share it here… ^^